I have survived 6 days of running!
No not 6 straight day of running but everyday running. Yesterday I woke up and thought WOW I CAN FEEL MY LEGS! They don't hurt. A couple of days I have tried to talk myself out of going but between Natalie and Eric they will not let me stop. Running with other people really helps...so does music. Really loud music! I need to find an ipod instead of using my phone...it goes off non stop and makes me want to stop and check it.

I took last night off as my break night and the first thing I wanted to do this morning was run...see other post on why I haven't yet. I have to admit it can be a challenge but afterwards I feel SO GOOD! It is getting almost like a craving I have to feed. If that makes sense. I am not sure why I want this so bad but I do. I am not athletic, never have been but I just feel the need to run. Maybe it clears my mind. Who knows! The past week we have been going about a mile in 12 mins and plan to up that starting today for this next week....a little more each week.

I am all over the place today! I swear I have some type A.D.H.D.

All at once I want to

wash my car
go to the beach
be outside
run
ride bikes
clean the house
sew
check on airline ticket
what is Lauren doing?
go to Kemah
run to Target
clean out stuff
should get up and shower...that will get me in some kind of direction
blog...but I am struggling with this.
paint rooms
why am I so easily sidetracked?
I need to make these mums
workout
read~did I mention the only thing I can do is read for hours and hours sometimes?
talk on the phone
camp
see friends

the list goes on! This is how my mind is ALL DAY!
I wonder sometimes if this is a problem. Is this normal? At night I can easily lay awake till 1 in the morning with my mind all over the place. Thinking about the day, what I did and didn't get done. Making a mental list for the next day. Speaking of list...I have to make myself a list at the start of each day (4:30) because if I don't I AM ALL OVER THE PLACE and won't get anything done.
I can't even sit down long enough to catch up my blog. I have so many things to write about and tell about but I just can't sit for long.

Really could he be any cuter? He is now a Tiger Cub and so excited. Tonight was our first meeting and he was so happy to wear his uniform. Proud of this little guy!

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The hubs and I recently took a vacation. Alone! Both of us have never done this and I was determined we would. I was excited but a little worried, he was more worried than I was.

When we arrived at the boat that morning I started crying...it was overwhelming, and I had an 'OH SHIT WHAT HAVE I DONE MOMENT" As soon as we started walking thru the terminal it all changed fast!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WcbPhaY6TXE&feature=share&list=UUNjwN4LSmecIafl_MTmi46w

For some reason I can't figure out how to view this youtube thing from a mobile phone...help me if you can!


Our trip was AMAZING! I have no words to describe it other that freaking AMAZING! We laughed, walked around,drank,partied,relaxed....did everything we can't do at home. I feel like this was such a great reset button for us. We by no means have any Marriage problem but life gets crazy with four kids and jobs but I seriously felt like this was so great for our relationship. We recently talked about going to Vegas on our 10 yr mark and getting remarried (that was our original plan but Ashlynn popped into our lives) but we have decided NO WAY! We are taking a cruise to the Bahamas.

We reconnected on this trip and have been so much closer, as if we could get any closer!

1st Day of School

 

1st day of Kinder 2011

 

 



1st Grade 2012

                                                                           

                                                             1st day of school lunch

He was not ready this year at all.

 

                                                          1st day of HIGH SCHOOL!

Nat was not excited about it at all. She pretty much hated it the first 2 weeks and wanted to runaway!

They both have adjusted pretty good. She made the Volleyball team and Swim and he is moving right along.

So Nat and I have decided to be "runners". I have this love hate relationship with running...I can get on the treadmill and run/walk for an hour and leave feeling like I am fresh out of a therapy session. I think it is my quiet time and I talk in my head..a lot. But if you put me out on the street I want to die after about 6 minutes. I am not kidding! My throat starts hurting, I feel like a 3 legged dog running for my life or something. Anyways...last time we decided we wanted to be "runners" I gave up halfway thru the neighborhood. It was hot,humid and it was raining. Oh and when I say I gave up halfway thru the neighborhood...it was like 2 blocks away!!

So the time came yesterday and I made excuse after excuse why I couldn't go. Homework,bath time, dishes (I hate dishes) mop the floors and so on. Nat got all stern on me told me to stop whining like a baby and change clothes. UGH. So I did...and out the door we went....then it started raining! UHHHH again! I ran and I ran like a 3 legged sideways dog and I did pretty good. We had a goal of starting off 15 minutes and we are going to keep moving up until we hit 60 minutes eventually. Good Luck with that! We went 1.56 miles in 13 minutes and I was pretty damn proud!

Today however I woke up at 4:30 a.m to talk to my hubs while he gets ready(yes I actually do this and love it) and I swear to god I am already thinking of excuses. My freaking legs and hips are so sore I want to crawl under the couch and hide until she gives up looking for me! But I know I can do this...I think.

We took a picture of our body last night and in 30 days we are taking another. I am just curious to see if you can visibly see a change after 30 days. So hopefully I can make it without dying! I have NEVER been the athletic type! We shall see.

I really want this shirt...but I think I will wait until I hit my 30 day mark!

SHE IS COLLEGE BOUND!

I knew this day would be here before we knew it. I had prepared (I thought) and knew I would be upset but I had no idea half my heart would feel empty.

 

 I seriously felt like the last few weeks we would be dropping her at Summer camp, then the day got here. The night before I decided to paint a room, clean,cook,stay crazy busy. I really had no idea I was doing all of that until late that night. When we pulled away from our house I had a sinking feeling in my guts....I then felt like we would be dropping her off at the fire station or something. Awful feeling!


 This is the view from her floor. We have been to this school a few times and the campus is BEAUTIFUL. I love it and so does she.

 Her Dad went with us to help move all her junk in...she had what seemed like so much but really once we got there it didn't seem like much. I was happy he went with us....we are a very functioning dysfunctional family and I am happy for that. We all got along, laughed and went to dinner afterwards. I have been asked if that is awkward...No not at all. Not for any of us. Everyone gets along and talks and laughs like a "normal" family.

 The time came to say goodbye.....I felt the pull at my heart but kept ignoring it. Then Nick decided he was not letting go. He kept whispering for her to just come home, lets leave, I am not leaving you. He was crying so hard and I had to peel him off of her. That made it 10x worse on me...I am sure she felt the same.

We left...I was upset, I tore at my husband, I was rude, we were tired and I couldn't help it.( Thank god he loves me) I started to panic wondering what I have done. I also had a sense of relief because she MADE it! She went further than I ever did and I was so happy for that! I also felt good about the fact she was happy there. She loves the area.
I called her a few days later and asked her how it was, how everything was going...."I love this place and it is where my heart belongs" I wanted to curl into a ball and cry all over again.


Nick and Natalie were very upset for about a week. He wanted to go pick her up and bring her home and Natalie I think finally realized her big sister that constantly fought with her would no longer be there to fight with.

Ashlynn just tells everyone she is on a cruise!

I think I have done really good with all of this. I have only had a few moments the first week when I started worrying about her parking in a garage and walking alone. UGH those moments scare the crap out of me!

OK OK OK...This damn blog keeps getting pushed to the side. I can't decide if I want to keep using it for everyday stuff like kids, family,issues or to vent. I seem to be real good at venting like this and walking away feeling better. I don't know...

Anyways I do know this is one of the ways our out of town family keeps up with us and I love that so maybe I should keep it going.