Sunday, May 30, 2010
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Things are much better for Lauren now! Yippee. Makes me happy and takes a load off my back.
So things are getting back to "normal" and I am so thankful! We have been so busy still as you can imagine.
I will write more later but just wanted to post these pictures for now.
This was a few months ago, I love love love this picture!
Thank you for the flowers and get well wishes!
So things are getting back to "normal" and I am so thankful! We have been so busy still as you can imagine.
I will write more later but just wanted to post these pictures for now.
This was a few months ago, I love love love this picture!
Thank you for the flowers and get well wishes!
Sunday, May 23, 2010
What a busy last minute crazy unscheduled few days! I am a very scheduled person, everything I do in my day is together and on time for a specific reason so my day does goes smooth. I make list and cross things out as I go, and I have my calender I write all events from each day in it. For the most part my day is a very very well planned day everyday with the same schedule. So this past week I had a feeling things were going to change but I had no idea it would happen so fast.
Remember on Tuesday when we went to Chuckie Cheese? I took Lauren with us because she said she didn't "feel well". I had noticed she wasn't herself for a few days but she was also going through an intense life guard course to get certified and I figured she was just worn out. So during that visit she said a few times her stomach was hurting but we kept walking around. We left and went to lunch were she ate really good. Came home at 1 and she crawled right into bed. I checked on her several times between 1 p.m and 10 p.m that day and she just seemed to be way tired so I didn't wake her.
Wednesday morning about 7 a.m I went to wake her for school. She told me she had been up all night vomiting and severe stomach pains. I then noticed she had fever and looked "different". I called Terry at work and told him something just isn't right. He ran home to take her to the doctor. I was unable to because it was my day with extra kids.
I will skip over all the details of that VERY long day...we ended up at South East Memorial Hospital with appendicitis. We arrived there about 7 p.m knowing they would schedule surgery Thursday morning. Well things seem to change for her fast. As we were waiting to be checked she developed a higher fever and a ton more pain. She was going downhill fast.
The next thing I know a man walks in and says "Hi I am Dr. Wollfe and I will be doing surgery on your daughter." I say now? Yes we are leaving right now.
I had no time to ask questions and honestly I had no questions for once in my life. I knew she was in so much pain they just needed to get that "lil booger" out.
I can honestly tell you for one time in my entire life I was not worried at all about a surgery. She needed relief and I was worried her appendix would rupture.
I realized as were were transporting her upstairs it was very urgent because the doctor called the nurse on why it what was taking "so long" to get upstairs. I thought we were going fast but apparently not.
Getting ready for Surgery
This picture is 20 minutes after surgery, her surgery only lasted about 20 minutes! During that time I was alone. Normally that is difficult for me but Terry had to stay home with Natalie, Ashlynn and Nick. I really didn't even have time to think about being alone either. I just wanted her to feel better.
When she came out of surgery the first words out of her mouth were "OH MY GOD I FEEL BETTER!" Then she cried. Part of the crying was the meds. and the rest was because she was hurting from the surgery. The next few hours were rocky and after we were released from the hospital Thursday night (not even 24hrs later) we ended up going back on Friday with high fever and a few other symptoms. We spent 8 hrs there and came home later with new meds.
Today is Sunday and I can actually see life in her eyes. Huge difference today! THANK YOU GOD!
So in the mean time during all of this...Terry was at home with the kids. I was at the hospital unable to leave because Lauren was under 18. I learned alot from this little experience.
1. Never doubt your gut feeling.
2. Don't worry about depending on others, if they ask they do want to help. I still haven't been able to do this but had decided if she was re admitted Friday I needed help.
3. If you doubt something that is being done don't be afraid to ask questions. Everyone gets so busy and things do get forgotten.
4.Always take socks to the hospital! :)
5.When I was signing paperwork for surgery I had the dreaded can we give blood during an emergency question...for a split second I thought HOLY COW what do I do? Yes give blood to save my child. I never thought I would have to make that kind of decision.
6.Take snacks!
7.Be patient.
8. I am the one in the house that stresses the most. While they were at the doctor I was organizing,cleaning, rearranging and almost like I was nesting before having a baby. I had also packed a bag without realizing I had done this.
9. No matter how perfect you want things to go it is ok if sometimes things fall apart.
10. I am not always in control...and that is ok! Things still work.
In the mean time as all this is going on Natalie was getting ready for her District Solo in Orchestra. She was dreading it and really hoping all of this would keep her from going. She then was begging not to go, she was going to be the first one to go at 7:30 a.m Saturday morning.
I sat her down Friday night and had to have a talk with her. Honestly I was exhausted and it would have been so much easier to not go but I felt that was not a good lesson to teach her or any of them. We don't quit or give up on commitments. She was very upset because she had not been practicing the past few weeks and failed to learn the music. Not good but she did decided she wanted to play this instrument. She also knew about this solo about 4 months ago so don't think it was just dropped in her lap at the last minute. She cried and begged but I told her I know she can do it and if not then this needs to be a lesson on why we follow through with things.
Now let me just say....this child has never failed at anything she has ever done. She is very competitive and hard on herself. I was able to go in for the judging and I nearly fell out of my chair. I was shocked! She played beautifully! I hate that she decided not to play the violin next year and I am not totally convinced I am going to let her quit next year.
So on Saturday evening we decided to take a break and go to a friend's Birthday party. We had a blast...that ended way sooner then we wanted it to. Ashlynn stepped in ants and was bitten about 5 times on her foot. Immediatly we noticed hives,welps and she was rubbing her eyes. It took us all a few minutes to realize she was having a severe allergic reaction! We only live 5 minutes away so we jump in the truck to go home...by the time we get home she was so red all over, eyes,ears and body parts swollen. Every area she has glands swelling and redness and then came the dry coughing! You know in my head I am thinking OH GOD I hope this is not a dreaded ER visit. We did give her benadryl...alot of it! Don't worry I called the Pharmacy who also told me most likely her next time will be much worse and all insects may do this. GREAT! She is fine now.
So it is now Sunday and Lauren is looking A LOT BETTER! She is moving around and sleeping less. Now maybe we can have a nice relaxing day home.
Remember on Tuesday when we went to Chuckie Cheese? I took Lauren with us because she said she didn't "feel well". I had noticed she wasn't herself for a few days but she was also going through an intense life guard course to get certified and I figured she was just worn out. So during that visit she said a few times her stomach was hurting but we kept walking around. We left and went to lunch were she ate really good. Came home at 1 and she crawled right into bed. I checked on her several times between 1 p.m and 10 p.m that day and she just seemed to be way tired so I didn't wake her.
Wednesday morning about 7 a.m I went to wake her for school. She told me she had been up all night vomiting and severe stomach pains. I then noticed she had fever and looked "different". I called Terry at work and told him something just isn't right. He ran home to take her to the doctor. I was unable to because it was my day with extra kids.
I will skip over all the details of that VERY long day...we ended up at South East Memorial Hospital with appendicitis. We arrived there about 7 p.m knowing they would schedule surgery Thursday morning. Well things seem to change for her fast. As we were waiting to be checked she developed a higher fever and a ton more pain. She was going downhill fast.
The next thing I know a man walks in and says "Hi I am Dr. Wollfe and I will be doing surgery on your daughter." I say now? Yes we are leaving right now.
I had no time to ask questions and honestly I had no questions for once in my life. I knew she was in so much pain they just needed to get that "lil booger" out.
I can honestly tell you for one time in my entire life I was not worried at all about a surgery. She needed relief and I was worried her appendix would rupture.
I realized as were were transporting her upstairs it was very urgent because the doctor called the nurse on why it what was taking "so long" to get upstairs. I thought we were going fast but apparently not.
Getting ready for Surgery
This picture is 20 minutes after surgery, her surgery only lasted about 20 minutes! During that time I was alone. Normally that is difficult for me but Terry had to stay home with Natalie, Ashlynn and Nick. I really didn't even have time to think about being alone either. I just wanted her to feel better.
When she came out of surgery the first words out of her mouth were "OH MY GOD I FEEL BETTER!" Then she cried. Part of the crying was the meds. and the rest was because she was hurting from the surgery. The next few hours were rocky and after we were released from the hospital Thursday night (not even 24hrs later) we ended up going back on Friday with high fever and a few other symptoms. We spent 8 hrs there and came home later with new meds.
Today is Sunday and I can actually see life in her eyes. Huge difference today! THANK YOU GOD!
So in the mean time during all of this...Terry was at home with the kids. I was at the hospital unable to leave because Lauren was under 18. I learned alot from this little experience.
1. Never doubt your gut feeling.
2. Don't worry about depending on others, if they ask they do want to help. I still haven't been able to do this but had decided if she was re admitted Friday I needed help.
3. If you doubt something that is being done don't be afraid to ask questions. Everyone gets so busy and things do get forgotten.
4.Always take socks to the hospital! :)
5.When I was signing paperwork for surgery I had the dreaded can we give blood during an emergency question...for a split second I thought HOLY COW what do I do? Yes give blood to save my child. I never thought I would have to make that kind of decision.
6.Take snacks!
7.Be patient.
8. I am the one in the house that stresses the most. While they were at the doctor I was organizing,cleaning, rearranging and almost like I was nesting before having a baby. I had also packed a bag without realizing I had done this.
9. No matter how perfect you want things to go it is ok if sometimes things fall apart.
10. I am not always in control...and that is ok! Things still work.
In the mean time as all this is going on Natalie was getting ready for her District Solo in Orchestra. She was dreading it and really hoping all of this would keep her from going. She then was begging not to go, she was going to be the first one to go at 7:30 a.m Saturday morning.
I sat her down Friday night and had to have a talk with her. Honestly I was exhausted and it would have been so much easier to not go but I felt that was not a good lesson to teach her or any of them. We don't quit or give up on commitments. She was very upset because she had not been practicing the past few weeks and failed to learn the music. Not good but she did decided she wanted to play this instrument. She also knew about this solo about 4 months ago so don't think it was just dropped in her lap at the last minute. She cried and begged but I told her I know she can do it and if not then this needs to be a lesson on why we follow through with things.
Now let me just say....this child has never failed at anything she has ever done. She is very competitive and hard on herself. I was able to go in for the judging and I nearly fell out of my chair. I was shocked! She played beautifully! I hate that she decided not to play the violin next year and I am not totally convinced I am going to let her quit next year.
So on Saturday evening we decided to take a break and go to a friend's Birthday party. We had a blast...that ended way sooner then we wanted it to. Ashlynn stepped in ants and was bitten about 5 times on her foot. Immediatly we noticed hives,welps and she was rubbing her eyes. It took us all a few minutes to realize she was having a severe allergic reaction! We only live 5 minutes away so we jump in the truck to go home...by the time we get home she was so red all over, eyes,ears and body parts swollen. Every area she has glands swelling and redness and then came the dry coughing! You know in my head I am thinking OH GOD I hope this is not a dreaded ER visit. We did give her benadryl...alot of it! Don't worry I called the Pharmacy who also told me most likely her next time will be much worse and all insects may do this. GREAT! She is fine now.
So it is now Sunday and Lauren is looking A LOT BETTER! She is moving around and sleeping less. Now maybe we can have a nice relaxing day home.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Happy 4th Birthday Zoe
We decided to celebrate Zoe's birthday by taking her someplace fun. Originally we were going to go to the park and have a picnic but it has been raining lately and is yucky muddy. So instead I decided to not tell anyone we were going to Chuckie Cheese! Yes me and 4 little kids all under the age of 4.
It really doesn't phase me to go out like this with so many kids. I always have kids with me and really it is not as hectic as it sounds. Zoe and Lindsey are very good well behaved little girls so I am lucky!
When we arrived at 9 a.m and we were the only ones there. Not only were we the only ones but since they were doing a monthly safety check they gave us extra tokens and tickets. I was very pleased. It took 4 kids an hour and a half to go thru 100 tokens. They ran, played, and went wild. I had so much fun watching them smile and laugh. It really makes me so happy that I am able to do things like this during the day and at the last minute. I am so blessed to be able to watch these children grow and have fun. (Including my own)
Yes that is Lauren you see in the picture, she decided to join us.
Afterwards we decided to go eat at Souper Salad. A buffet with all kinds of yummy foods. Well kids 4 and under eat free...bet they have our picture up in the back now! These kids were so good and ate so much. Not one bit of food was on the table or floor. No messes, No spills nothing! We typically don't but it was our first time to all go to a sit down restaurant. (Not that it is a fancy place or anything) But I was very pleased at how well behaved they all were. I was a little worried at first because it was so close to nap time but I really think it also helps when you don't have to order and wait to be served. A hungry toddler will only wait so long for food.
It really doesn't phase me to go out like this with so many kids. I always have kids with me and really it is not as hectic as it sounds. Zoe and Lindsey are very good well behaved little girls so I am lucky!
When we arrived at 9 a.m and we were the only ones there. Not only were we the only ones but since they were doing a monthly safety check they gave us extra tokens and tickets. I was very pleased. It took 4 kids an hour and a half to go thru 100 tokens. They ran, played, and went wild. I had so much fun watching them smile and laugh. It really makes me so happy that I am able to do things like this during the day and at the last minute. I am so blessed to be able to watch these children grow and have fun. (Including my own)
Yes that is Lauren you see in the picture, she decided to join us.
Afterwards we decided to go eat at Souper Salad. A buffet with all kinds of yummy foods. Well kids 4 and under eat free...bet they have our picture up in the back now! These kids were so good and ate so much. Not one bit of food was on the table or floor. No messes, No spills nothing! We typically don't but it was our first time to all go to a sit down restaurant. (Not that it is a fancy place or anything) But I was very pleased at how well behaved they all were. I was a little worried at first because it was so close to nap time but I really think it also helps when you don't have to order and wait to be served. A hungry toddler will only wait so long for food.
Monday, May 17, 2010
Happy 4th Birthday Cassie
Happy 4th Birthday Cassie!
Nick and Cassie had lots of fun at her party making sand art, ice cream sundaes, ring toss, pinata and other really cool stuff. We have watched Cassie since she was about 18 mths old and it is amazing how much she has changed.
Other countries
So I was reading a magazine while the kids were running like wild maniacs and I came across an article about other Countries and Children. Very interesting...I was a little intrigued in the way things are. For instance in India everyone helps you! Indian women typically give birth at their parent's home and stay to recover for several months while relatives take care of your baby.Breastfeeding is a BIG deal and formula companies are forbidden to advertise in India.
In Israel larger families are better, they expect you to have more and ask you when you are having the next child. Children walk and use public transportation alone and everyday between the hours of 2 and 4p.m businesses and families observe that time to completely shut down so that children can nap or study. Banks even close for this and parks empty out. Extra curricular after school activities are from 4-7p.m.
In Germany the government is so concerned about the long term financial impact of families having one child that they offer the Mom to stay home 14 weeks with full pay, mothers or fathers can take 14 months leave and still get two-thirds their pay with a guarantee to have their job back. The government also funds public day cares.
I just thought this was very interesting and wanted to share it.
In Israel larger families are better, they expect you to have more and ask you when you are having the next child. Children walk and use public transportation alone and everyday between the hours of 2 and 4p.m businesses and families observe that time to completely shut down so that children can nap or study. Banks even close for this and parks empty out. Extra curricular after school activities are from 4-7p.m.
In Germany the government is so concerned about the long term financial impact of families having one child that they offer the Mom to stay home 14 weeks with full pay, mothers or fathers can take 14 months leave and still get two-thirds their pay with a guarantee to have their job back. The government also funds public day cares.
I just thought this was very interesting and wanted to share it.
Since I have been to the doctor I have slept SO hard! It took me a couple days to get used to the medicine but after the first 2 nights I love to sleep! I have never slept so hard I tell ya!
Not so good thing is I am still very sleepy. I can't explain it just sleepy. I am more focused with the good sleep and my headaches have gone away but right now it is 7:06 p.m and I am counting down the hours until bedtime. My eyes are heavy and I am achy. Maybe it is just the fact we go to bed at 11 every night,but I will figure it out.
I am a little more aggravated or bothered by this lump in my throat that I still have. I can't stand it and I have tried everything to get rid of it but I still have it. I know gross but hey this is a blog to update our family that I have such a hard time calling.
We are having a yucky allergy season so maybe that is just the problem. Time will tell and no point in slowing down...life doesn't slow down for anything!
I hope everyone had a great weekend!
Not so good thing is I am still very sleepy. I can't explain it just sleepy. I am more focused with the good sleep and my headaches have gone away but right now it is 7:06 p.m and I am counting down the hours until bedtime. My eyes are heavy and I am achy. Maybe it is just the fact we go to bed at 11 every night,but I will figure it out.
I am a little more aggravated or bothered by this lump in my throat that I still have. I can't stand it and I have tried everything to get rid of it but I still have it. I know gross but hey this is a blog to update our family that I have such a hard time calling.
We are having a yucky allergy season so maybe that is just the problem. Time will tell and no point in slowing down...life doesn't slow down for anything!
I hope everyone had a great weekend!
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Another CHEERLEADER
As the week began I wasn't so sure everything was going to work out for Natalie. She wanted to try out for Junior High Cheer leading, I know you are saying "What? Why are you thinking that?" First I will say I was a little sad that she is wanting to do cheer because she is SO good at sports. I mean really good. She is VERY competitive and I think she was just born that way. I kept thinking man she won't be playing sports, then I thought OK she won't make it. ( I know I know not nice at all) Then I reminded myself you can do both in Junior High. Once you get to 9Th grade you have to make a choice. So anyways after her first day of the cheer clinic I thought OH MY GOSH this isn't going to work. She is frustrated and every time Lauren tries to help she gets mad. I finally had to just step aside and let her do this, it was so hard for me not to give an opinion or anything. I just watched each day she practiced from 4 until we made her stop at 10 p.m. and she was getting better and better and better...by Thursday I was amazed that she was doing so good because on Monday she couldn't smile,talk and cheer all at the same time. It was one thing at a time and that was it!
So Friday I picked her up from School, she was shaking I was shaking and I just kept telling her do her best,try hard,smile,yell and on and on. We pull up to the school and Lauren is waiting! She has shown no interest at all this entire time. She was there to do Natalie's hair and make up. The girls did what they had to do and she was off!
We are not going to find out until Saturday at noon. Crummy huh? Natalie was walking in circles all night until about 11 a Dad of another girl told me Natalie made it and they had just posted it. Well I am sure not going to tell her without seeing it with my own eyes. We head up to the school in the POURING FLOODING rain.
GUESS WHAT? She made it! Yes we are now the proud parents of 2 Cheer leaders! I hope we survive this!
So now that she made it I am so excited! I am so super happy for her. She is going to have so much fun and I can't wait to see her grow with this!
Thursday, May 13, 2010
No matter how hard I try to make sure we are organized something always goes "wrong" I plan,make list, and reorganize all day. But when something doesn't go as expected it can make or break a situation.
I will start of by telling you I had to go to the doctor yesterday. I have been feeling run down, stomach hurts, legs hurt, grouchy,getting migraines, neck and throat hurting. Just to name a few. When I got into the doctor's office I was thinking GOD I DON'T want cancer! I was freaking out pretty much. After talking to her and explaining some things I realized I have a problem. I am not sick. I am worrying about everything and nothing. I spend everyday making sure everyone has everything they need all day long! If they don't have it I get it. I make sure nobody has worries,issue or anything else. I also worry ALOT. My kids will never understand why I worry but I know my husband does. I stay up most of the night making sure things are done, thinking and tossing and turning. By the time I fall asleep at around midnight I wake about 2-3 more times. Did I do this? Did I do that? ALL NIGHT. Oh and then there is the thoughts of if someone breaks in will I hear them? Will Terry? Or will they grab our kids in the night and we will never know? Yes I seriously do this. It gets better...If the house catches on fire will we wake? I have placed a smoke detector at each door and I still worry. We have taught or 4yr old to run to Jeff's (2 houses away) and he will tell you "if the house is on fire run to Jeff's house" So it doesn't stop there...when the girls leave the house I am in constant fear they will be in an accident. I text them every hour to make sure they are ok. If they don't respond I am in an instant worry and call. I would say I must get on their nerves but they are used to it. I never put my cell phone down because in my mind if they need help and I don't have my phone it would be my fault if it was something tragic.
So as I am telling my doctor how I feel and I have a break down. I really didn't realize how bad I panic. I think of every horrible scenario before I do anything. That is causing me all the symptoms I have been experiencing.
My lack of sleep and worrying go back 5yrs ago to that accident....since that day my life changed. If only things would have been different that day. The loss of a parent if difficult for any person but when it is a careless accident I think it is a little more traumatic. Things can happen so fast and I guess that day made me constantly stay on top of everyone in this house. If Nick gets never murky water I instantly start to panic and have to get him away. If Lauren is going some were I make her take someone, if Natalie is out playing she has to have a friend with her at all times and Ashlynn well she is with me non stop so....
I never realized all of this until I said it all out loud yesterday. WOW is all I could say. No wonder I am not feeling well. So she wants me to get a weeks worth of sleep (at night) and after that go from there with the symptoms. OK I can do that!
I left the doctor to rush home to grab Lauren because she was being inducted into the National Honor Society. We pull up at 5:55 and notice all the girls are in dresses and boys in ties. OH NO she must have missed the memo on what to wear!!! She is in jeans and a cute top! I say Lauren lets go home! "no mom it is fine" OK.
Well at 6:25 she is feeling way under dressed and says I am going home to put on a dress! Well it took her 20 minutes, she cried the way there and on the way back as she pulled into the parking lot they called her name. Oh my great gravy!! Not only did she miss it I forgot the disk for my camera to take pictures afterwards! UGH!
As Lauren and I got into the truck afterwards we fell apart. Sometimes things don't go as planned. Whatever the reason they don't go your way no matter how much you plan and try. She was very upset that she missed it and said things are never smooth for us. Something always goes wrong. I then had to explain to her you are right we do have alot of roadblocks but that is part of life. Look at all the things that happen that we laugh at now. Last time we went camping they didn't have our reservation, the call taker made it 100 miles away from that location. I laughed and said "only us" It really is always something and that is fine. If these are the worst things we go thru I am fine with that because we have memories. I told her just think when you are on the stage your Senior year for NHS you will look back and laugh at that.
So after we cried for about an 1 hour last night I decided ok I will take this sleep aid my doctor gave me. I NEVER take anything other than Tylenol, I am just weird like that. The entire time I was thinking something will go wrong and I hope I wake up. WELL...Lauren was up all night with intense stomach pain and Ashlynn woke at 4 a.m vomiting! I knew it! But I was able to wake up for it all.
So I will say I am going to use these next few days to STOP and take a deep breath and let life happen. I hope it goes well and you know if it doesn't I will be writing about it!
I will start of by telling you I had to go to the doctor yesterday. I have been feeling run down, stomach hurts, legs hurt, grouchy,getting migraines, neck and throat hurting. Just to name a few. When I got into the doctor's office I was thinking GOD I DON'T want cancer! I was freaking out pretty much. After talking to her and explaining some things I realized I have a problem. I am not sick. I am worrying about everything and nothing. I spend everyday making sure everyone has everything they need all day long! If they don't have it I get it. I make sure nobody has worries,issue or anything else. I also worry ALOT. My kids will never understand why I worry but I know my husband does. I stay up most of the night making sure things are done, thinking and tossing and turning. By the time I fall asleep at around midnight I wake about 2-3 more times. Did I do this? Did I do that? ALL NIGHT. Oh and then there is the thoughts of if someone breaks in will I hear them? Will Terry? Or will they grab our kids in the night and we will never know? Yes I seriously do this. It gets better...If the house catches on fire will we wake? I have placed a smoke detector at each door and I still worry. We have taught or 4yr old to run to Jeff's (2 houses away) and he will tell you "if the house is on fire run to Jeff's house" So it doesn't stop there...when the girls leave the house I am in constant fear they will be in an accident. I text them every hour to make sure they are ok. If they don't respond I am in an instant worry and call. I would say I must get on their nerves but they are used to it. I never put my cell phone down because in my mind if they need help and I don't have my phone it would be my fault if it was something tragic.
So as I am telling my doctor how I feel and I have a break down. I really didn't realize how bad I panic. I think of every horrible scenario before I do anything. That is causing me all the symptoms I have been experiencing.
My lack of sleep and worrying go back 5yrs ago to that accident....since that day my life changed. If only things would have been different that day. The loss of a parent if difficult for any person but when it is a careless accident I think it is a little more traumatic. Things can happen so fast and I guess that day made me constantly stay on top of everyone in this house. If Nick gets never murky water I instantly start to panic and have to get him away. If Lauren is going some were I make her take someone, if Natalie is out playing she has to have a friend with her at all times and Ashlynn well she is with me non stop so....
I never realized all of this until I said it all out loud yesterday. WOW is all I could say. No wonder I am not feeling well. So she wants me to get a weeks worth of sleep (at night) and after that go from there with the symptoms. OK I can do that!
I left the doctor to rush home to grab Lauren because she was being inducted into the National Honor Society. We pull up at 5:55 and notice all the girls are in dresses and boys in ties. OH NO she must have missed the memo on what to wear!!! She is in jeans and a cute top! I say Lauren lets go home! "no mom it is fine" OK.
Well at 6:25 she is feeling way under dressed and says I am going home to put on a dress! Well it took her 20 minutes, she cried the way there and on the way back as she pulled into the parking lot they called her name. Oh my great gravy!! Not only did she miss it I forgot the disk for my camera to take pictures afterwards! UGH!
As Lauren and I got into the truck afterwards we fell apart. Sometimes things don't go as planned. Whatever the reason they don't go your way no matter how much you plan and try. She was very upset that she missed it and said things are never smooth for us. Something always goes wrong. I then had to explain to her you are right we do have alot of roadblocks but that is part of life. Look at all the things that happen that we laugh at now. Last time we went camping they didn't have our reservation, the call taker made it 100 miles away from that location. I laughed and said "only us" It really is always something and that is fine. If these are the worst things we go thru I am fine with that because we have memories. I told her just think when you are on the stage your Senior year for NHS you will look back and laugh at that.
So after we cried for about an 1 hour last night I decided ok I will take this sleep aid my doctor gave me. I NEVER take anything other than Tylenol, I am just weird like that. The entire time I was thinking something will go wrong and I hope I wake up. WELL...Lauren was up all night with intense stomach pain and Ashlynn woke at 4 a.m vomiting! I knew it! But I was able to wake up for it all.
So I will say I am going to use these next few days to STOP and take a deep breath and let life happen. I hope it goes well and you know if it doesn't I will be writing about it!
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
I must have lost my mind today! First it is Tuesday so we go to a reading class at the Library. Nick (4) Ashlynn (1.5) Lindsey (3 in a mth) Zoe (4 going on 15)
Ashlynn was so loud running around the place and flinging books every were. Zoe decided to join. I quickly grabbed them both and headed into class.
I have to add that every week on our way I always ask " What are the rules for the Library?" No running, No loud talking, No grabbing books, and NO hanging on the check out line pole. They say it every week and we never have a problem.
So anyways...during the quiet class of reading Ashlynn decides to run around kids as if she is playing duck duck goose. I try to ignore her because if you tell her SSHHHH she gets louder. Well the other moms in the class giggle at her which feeds into it. NOT GOOD. I swear she is fueled by attention!
So after an hour of this torture we are leaving and our rule again is to hold hands while leaving and DO NOT RUN. I have to say DO NOT RUN all the time or they run wild.
Ashlynn decides she is not holding hands and wants to run. So I grab her little arm and she becomes a wet noodle! OVER AND OVER we do this. I finally snatch her up.
I then get the kids all loaded up and we decide since they were good and they want pizza we will go buy one at Kroger. OMG OMG OMG what was I thinking? At this point I really wanted to let Ashlynn crawl up in those vending machines with the claw so that we could go get our pizza. She was yelling and shouting and whining. Then refused to sit in the buggy. I think OK I will let her walk with the girls...ZOOOOOOOOOOM she is off! Running like the wild banshee that she is!
Nedless to say we got our pizza and got out of the store Fast!!
Keep in mind I can go to Walmart with all 4 of them with not a problem. I am hoping today was just an off day. Please god let this be an off day.
Ashlynn was so loud running around the place and flinging books every were. Zoe decided to join. I quickly grabbed them both and headed into class.
I have to add that every week on our way I always ask " What are the rules for the Library?" No running, No loud talking, No grabbing books, and NO hanging on the check out line pole. They say it every week and we never have a problem.
So anyways...during the quiet class of reading Ashlynn decides to run around kids as if she is playing duck duck goose. I try to ignore her because if you tell her SSHHHH she gets louder. Well the other moms in the class giggle at her which feeds into it. NOT GOOD. I swear she is fueled by attention!
So after an hour of this torture we are leaving and our rule again is to hold hands while leaving and DO NOT RUN. I have to say DO NOT RUN all the time or they run wild.
Ashlynn decides she is not holding hands and wants to run. So I grab her little arm and she becomes a wet noodle! OVER AND OVER we do this. I finally snatch her up.
I then get the kids all loaded up and we decide since they were good and they want pizza we will go buy one at Kroger. OMG OMG OMG what was I thinking? At this point I really wanted to let Ashlynn crawl up in those vending machines with the claw so that we could go get our pizza. She was yelling and shouting and whining. Then refused to sit in the buggy. I think OK I will let her walk with the girls...ZOOOOOOOOOOM she is off! Running like the wild banshee that she is!
Nedless to say we got our pizza and got out of the store Fast!!
Keep in mind I can go to Walmart with all 4 of them with not a problem. I am hoping today was just an off day. Please god let this be an off day.
Monday, May 10, 2010
I really love this picture. Something about it says so much. When I look at pictures I like it when they tell you everything without anyone saying a word about it.
This one can go so many ways but to me I think it looks like a Red Cross add or something. I was messing around with the picture because she was so filthy after eating a Popsicle. Turned out cute.
I love hobbies
I think maybe I have to many things I LOVE to do. Like this blog...I don't even know if anyone reads it or keeps up but I love it.
I love taking pictures...even though I am just starting I think I am doing good.
When I really got bored today ( with 5 kids under 5 how that happens I have no idea) I started thinking about how cute a little twirl skirt would be for Ashlynn.
So I made her a skirt in 30 mins that she can wear for Memorial Day. LOVE IT!
I love taking pictures...even though I am just starting I think I am doing good.
When I really got bored today ( with 5 kids under 5 how that happens I have no idea) I started thinking about how cute a little twirl skirt would be for Ashlynn.
So I made her a skirt in 30 mins that she can wear for Memorial Day. LOVE IT!
Wishes
Lately I keep thinking about how great it would be to live on a huge piece of land growing vegetables and having a few animals. A place that it didn't really matter how you dressed, what your hair looks like and if you ever wear make up. I would like to go to a place like that to raise our kids in a wholesome environment. A place you can just run around all day and play.
Maybe I was a hippie free spirit kind of lady in a past life. I just think to run around in free flowing sun dresses and feeding baby goats while my children picked fresh vegetables would be such a life. Going in to town once or twice a month for essentials and only going to the big city to see family.
Maybe we could sell the house and everything in it and buy an RV and just travel the U.S. Teaching the kids about every landmark and stopping at every Farmer's Market we can. Sounds so fun yet relaxing.
OK back to reality. I am finding myself a little stressed out the past few days. The school year is coming to an end, I am planning a family vacation ( that I seem to only be interested in), Natalie is trying out for cheer, and a million other things are going on. I can't help but be a little sad at the fact Lauren will be a Junior and after that a Senior. I am almost worried this next school year will fly by. I am so not looking forward to her leaving for College but at the same time very excited. Yes I am jumping ahead but my mind is just like that.
I guess every once in a while it is nice to step out of reality into my little dream world.
Who wouldn't love to escape to this place?
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Mother's Day
What a beautiful day! I love being a mommy and really think I am so blessed to have these children. Each one of them is so different yet similar. I love each one so very much. Being a parent gives me so much love and patience to share.
Dear Lauren,
My oldest baby...you are so wonderful and have taught me so much in life. You made me grow up so fast and I think god each day for that! You taught me at an early age how to love and be loved.
Dear Natalie,
I always call you my middle baby..you are so beautiful and growing up so fast. You have taught me patience and understanding. You have taught me a love that only a mommy and daughter share. You always keep me on the edge of my seat and I love you for that!
Dear Nicholas,
My baby boy...the love from a son is much different than a daughters. You taught me from the beginning how precious life can be. You came in this big world not wanting to fight but quickly that changed. You began to fight and show us god is good!
Dear Ashlynn,
Mommies tiny girl...WOW is all I can say. We thought we were done with babies and very shocked to find out I was pregnant. Now I look back and I know you were a blessing to all of us. You add the "spunk" in our lives that we had no idea was missing!
Each one of you are so special and loved. Everyday that goes by in my life I thank god for each of you!
Being a mommy is a blessing.
Dear Lauren,
My oldest baby...you are so wonderful and have taught me so much in life. You made me grow up so fast and I think god each day for that! You taught me at an early age how to love and be loved.
Dear Natalie,
I always call you my middle baby..you are so beautiful and growing up so fast. You have taught me patience and understanding. You have taught me a love that only a mommy and daughter share. You always keep me on the edge of my seat and I love you for that!
Dear Nicholas,
My baby boy...the love from a son is much different than a daughters. You taught me from the beginning how precious life can be. You came in this big world not wanting to fight but quickly that changed. You began to fight and show us god is good!
Dear Ashlynn,
Mommies tiny girl...WOW is all I can say. We thought we were done with babies and very shocked to find out I was pregnant. Now I look back and I know you were a blessing to all of us. You add the "spunk" in our lives that we had no idea was missing!
Each one of you are so special and loved. Everyday that goes by in my life I thank god for each of you!
Being a mommy is a blessing.
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Praise
I don't care what anyone says...a little praise goes a long way! I tell our children everyday I love them. I always tell them they are cute,beautiful,pretty or whatever the situation is I say it. I say it so much that now every once in a while Ashlynn will say "mommy you are beautiful." That makes my day. Last year we went camping and as we pulled into the park Nick said "WOW it is really beautiful here." I LOVE IT! I even tell the girls I keep on a daily basis they are pretty ,beautiful and so smart. I know one day when they get older they will thank me. It may not be in the words Thank you but I will know it when it happens. I believe everyone is beautiful in their own way and they should know it.
So don't think when I tell you that you look nice I am making it up. I don't lie about it. Everyone should be told when they look nice. RIGHT?
A little praise can make someone have a great day or can change your not so good day to a better day.
Now that the girls are getting older I see they have way more confidence than I ever had. They are both never afraid to try new things and they seem to carry themselves with respect and dignity. I would like to hope it has something to do with the fact I have given them lots of praise and love!
So don't think when I tell you that you look nice I am making it up. I don't lie about it. Everyone should be told when they look nice. RIGHT?
A little praise can make someone have a great day or can change your not so good day to a better day.
Now that the girls are getting older I see they have way more confidence than I ever had. They are both never afraid to try new things and they seem to carry themselves with respect and dignity. I would like to hope it has something to do with the fact I have given them lots of praise and love!
2nd Change
Lauren has a JOB!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO she starts training tomorrow afternoon for her Lifeguard position. I am really excited for her. Her first job!!!
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
End of the year
When most people say it is the end of the year they are talking about December. When I talk about the end of the year I am talking about May. We are going to have many changes happening in the next few weeks with our family. I guess as they happen I will let you know.
Tonight we had our first change.
I have to admit I am a little sad we won't have any more Orchestra Concerts. I never would have imagined they would sound so good. The beginning of the year was ear piercing and by December they had their first concert. The sound made me teary! It was beautiful!!! I couldn't believe it. Tonight we went to the last concert and I wish I would have pushed her to keep doing this but I didn't really think she loved it.
The little girl with the big white bow is Natalie!
Tonight we had our first change.
I have to admit I am a little sad we won't have any more Orchestra Concerts. I never would have imagined they would sound so good. The beginning of the year was ear piercing and by December they had their first concert. The sound made me teary! It was beautiful!!! I couldn't believe it. Tonight we went to the last concert and I wish I would have pushed her to keep doing this but I didn't really think she loved it.
The little girl with the big white bow is Natalie!
Growing up~not who you think
Today I have realized I have grown up so much! Those of you who have known me for a long time know I was a very different person as a teen then I am as an adult. I know exactly the day my life changed...maybe the 3 times my life changed forever would be best to say.
A few things have been thrown my way lately and I can honestly say I have handled them BEAUTIFULLY! I have taken a breath not screamed, been sassy, hateful or hurtful.
I can say...
I did it!
I grew up!
I transformed!
I love the person I have become. I love me! I used to never say that and it feels so good.
Anyways, I just wanted to say YEA ME! I don't have a picture for this little event of mine and I really don't even want to go into details. I will just say I am very proud of me.
Maybe I will find a picture...
A few things have been thrown my way lately and I can honestly say I have handled them BEAUTIFULLY! I have taken a breath not screamed, been sassy, hateful or hurtful.
I can say...
I did it!
I grew up!
I transformed!
I love the person I have become. I love me! I used to never say that and it feels so good.
Anyways, I just wanted to say YEA ME! I don't have a picture for this little event of mine and I really don't even want to go into details. I will just say I am very proud of me.
Maybe I will find a picture...
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