So we made the decision to go ahead and put Nick into school. Not daycare or Mother's Day Out but Monday thru Friday 8 to 3 public school. I had several reasons I was not ready and more reasons he was ready. I felt like he had "outgrown" being at home. He was very curious and wanted to venture out and learn more. I beat myself up about it nearly all summer long until the last minute I decided this was best for him. He was begging and craving school. Yes I said that! I have never had a little one want school so much and it really made me sad only because who doesn't want to keep their little guy home all day everyday.
So we went to meet the teacher night...I cried hard
We got his school supplies...I cried alot
We bought his back pack...yes I cried
The night before school started I had nightmares like you can't imagine. But I was very positive because he was so dang excited. I guess alot of this comes from the things going on during my pregnancy with him. I lost the only stable parent that was ever in my life to a horrible accident. I now have a fear of accidents and I am sure everyone knows about it now. Then when Nick was born he was on life support then in the level III NICU. I felt like 3 weeks had been taken away from us that I will never get back I know every mother has their story but I am so attached to him it is unreal.
ANYWAYS...
First Lauren woke at 5:30 and started getting ready. She was out the door by 6:50 and it was so strange for the first time in 11 years not to take her to school on the first day. I was a little shocked but it was strange.
Then Natalie woke up and her and Nick got ready together..Natalie ended up riding with a friend since her school time and Nick's were about the same. I felt awful not taking her on her first day. I really think it is true the middle child often gets shoved to the side and somewhat forgotten. (we can save that subject for another day)
So here we are ready to take Nick for his first day of School. He is so excited as we are driving this long very silent drive. I looked out the window second guessing myself over and over. I literally felt like we were dropping him off to be put up for adoption. I am not kidding! We get to the school and I start crying! Yes again...
Once we got to his class and he jumped into a seat and excitedly picked up a pencil and started drawing I thought WOW he is a big boy now! I looked around the room and other kids were crying and hanging on to their parents and here Nick was ready to get his day started. I was so proud of him and he seriously had to tell us "I am ok, you can leave now"
The day went on and I decided to sign Ashlynn up for a dance class....nope! Not gonna do it. She had no interest and really didn't care.
We spent the rest of the day not knowing what to do. Yes I said WE as in Daddy took the day off for the 1st day. As the day went on the girls and I decided to make a snack bag for Nick and wait for him out front for the bus stop.
So it kept getting later and later and about an hour of waiting I called the Bus Barn, no answer. I try not to panic because it is the first day and I expect things to be behind. Finally after an hour and a half here comes the bus and OH YES I CRIED! I was so freaking worried and a basket case ( I hid it well as we stood with all the neighbors and kids waiting to see him.) He was still smiling and looking exactly as we left him that morning.
I was so excited when Lauren,Natalie and Nick all came home. I felt like a hyper little doggy asking a million questions to all 3 of them and not even giving anyone a chance to finish. I love to hear everything about the day they had. I want to know about each class, who is in it, what the teacher is like, how the class looks, who did you sit with at lunch, was it loud, what did you eat..and the list goes on.
As you can imagine at the end of the day everyone was exhausted.
Notice the little girls sitting with Nick? Those are his Best Friends and he loves them all so much.
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