Sometimes it is hard to admit your children are growing up. I am having a real difficult time with it today.

Lauren has decided she wants to be a "Senior" and have at least 1 fun year in High School instead of being a Cheerleader again. This is very hard for me to accept for many reasons. I have not said much for the past 3 years about her experience as a Cheerleader. Maybe I shouldn't at all but I will tell you I have watched her cry, be hurt both mentally and physically, be let down by her teammates, get run over and more than I can even explain on here. I have struggled with her decision all day and I have no idea why. Maybe because I have watched her be let down over and over. I have held her up when her team should have. I have made excuses and promised her maybe just one more year and it will change.
I have watched her love this with all her heart and watched her lose her passion.

I know this was a hard decision for her but at the same time I am so proud of her for walking away. I am proud she has the respect to let someone else have her spot and that she isn't just doing this to make me happy.

She wants to be with her friends in the stands having fun. I can understand that! She wants to do things her Senior year that she could not do if she was Cheering. I understand that.

I am so sad about it and honestly I shouldn't be but I have to wonder is it because she is growing up or is it because she walked away from something she loved so much at one time.

This will be Lauren's last Summer as a "kid" and I really want her to enjoy it.